Just Leave, You don’t know me like I thought you did Sir.
Ok. It’s time for me to be publically open about My Last Relationship.
We shall Call him C. And it Relationship C.
Why? Because I have had two other serious relationships before him. A and B.
Onward.
I am not in a great mood with or about him but It’s time I let it out.
C started out as sheer perfection.
The kind you see in the movies.
Naturally I fell in Love with him. He was perfect! I even surprised him valentines morning by showing up to spend the day with him. And I bought him a card, and if you know me you know I suck at buying cards. He did sweet things for me and I him. I was at his house every weekend. It was perfect.
So, as time wore on I made a mistake. It was My Mistake on my part. Not his. I decided I could live with him. He was up for it, excited. I jumped to soon. I moved in with him and a few roomates in New Bern in a huge two story house with a full basement and attic. And thats when the problems started.
Everyone in the house started having problems with eachother. People were not pulling their weight and everyone was ill about something. The good days were great the bad days were bad. Me and C started to grow apart. I still loved him though things were not the same and I wanted to fix what was wrong.
Then a lot of drama went down and we got our own place. I finally got a good job and things looked up for a bit. Till I got restless. We never went anywhere with friends because he never wanted to. When I would go see my family he would get mad. Then it turned into all he wanted was sex. and thats when I got distant. When a relationship gets to that point I grow away fast. Ask relationship A. I tried talking to him but he insisted on sex being neccisary. I never gave it up though. Which led to stress and trust issues.
I finally left him after a few weeks of tears and thought. I realized he never trusted me like he said he did and when that last sraw fell I left. It was over. And I hated loosing him though I knew it was right. I thought maybe we could try again. But not here. Maybe when I moved to cali since he was moving back to Nevada. But no. We tried staying friends and I enjoyed it as much as I missed him. When I went to New York things changed. I came back and now its nothing. He is turned into a complete stranger. And maybe its for the better.
If he wants to throw away eight months. Go for it. I don’t know him anymore. So you know what?
I’m going to do what I have been fighting and Forget him.
I tried to save a relationship and failed. I am not screwing up my life to save a friendship. It’s not worth it anymore.
He makes me so Angry!! Just a text from him and I get ill. I can’t explain how much.
There are so many nice guys out there.
I just need to find one that is not a sexaholic or an alcoholic like he was.
great, now I am stressed, ugh.
Anyway work calls.
night.
-avaX
